January 2012
1 post
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Call me crazy, I know. I love him. 3 years is a long time to have someone in your life. I keep dreaming of the multiplying though. No one makes me feel the way he does. I’ve messed up though. I’ve sat here and let something amazing maybe go out of reach. I wonder daily will it work. I sit up at night crying at the thought of losing him. Do I press on and keep the hope? Do I give up and...
May 2011
6 posts
home
so ready leaving soon cfield here i come
Brokaw
to the nights outside with people I love. :) thanks for being here you make me smile.
April 2011
1 post
Honestly
My blog is labeled inside her mind, but honestly I don’t think anyone wants to be there. Lately I’m lost in it all by myself. When I think everything is going good and I’m smiling something terrible happens and my life is turned around all over again. It’s a constant battle to keep my head straight. Lately, I don’t even know Who I am. I here what everyone tells me...
February 2011
8 posts
End of Rant.
To end my rant. He called and I had the conversation I needed. Hearing his voice calms it all. Sometimes I over think things and make myself angry.
Rant.
Okay so I know that no one may care about my useless rant but it makes me feel better because right now I could punch a kitten in the face and be alright with it for a little. Okay, so maybe not a kitten. But boys are confusing sometimes they talk and sometimes they don’t and honestly I just want an answer a yes or no answer. Not some riddle about how maybe one day if its something else you...
Happiness?
Throughout life we do all these things to make us happy. Though we are always still out there looking for something else to make us happy. I’ve tried to be a lot of things that I’m not and now its time for a change. It’s time to move past the childish days and move into the real world. Where yes problems occur but good things do happen. You have to work at something in order to...
ur silly...and I like it.
Its the funny goofy things that say that make me fall for you more and more. Its the cute stuff you say on accident that makes me just want to hug you till you can’t breathe. Thank you for talking to me on my bad days and reminding me that no matter what someone is there and they care.
♥kickinthechin
Funny. Even though I don’t feel good and my head hurts hearing you on the phone makes the day worth it. :) Even if it listening to you be upset about how Black Ops is cheating and you should have killed the guy, it still makes me smile. ♥ and btw I’m glad you love me too because I def. don’t want a kick in the chin. Thanks.
January 2011
4 posts
Her
Do you think of her every time you see my face,
Or do you just have girls running in your race?
If you think I’ll keep on trying,
Then to yourself you’ll keep on lying.
For soon I’ll get tired of this pace.
And I’m not here for you to put me in a place.
Did you tell her that you love me?
Did you tell her that you miss me?
Did you let know I hate her,
And did you tell her just what...
Silver lining
They say there’s a silver lining, around ever cloud.
As I look up I can see it right now.
There’s hope on the horizon.
Got more signal then Verizon.
And since I’m up I’m not making that trip down.
I can see you standing there.
With your frown and despair.
But a good day is coming.
You just need to stop running.
And just stay calm for awhile dear, stay calm .
So take it in, and let...
Take. Me. Away
You see the tears building up and the sorrow flood my face,
It’s like this a lot in my little dark world.
And all that I want is for someone take me away.
I can’t take another worried night, full of despair and hurt.
And if I don’t leave really soon.
My heart will end up in back in the dirt.
So save me grab and pull me up as hard as you can.
Don’t let me fall any...
December 2010
2 posts
Wish
I was upset because I knew there was no way I would get what I had wished for. No one was gonna wrap him up for me. Though while laying in bed a message came in and made me smile. Sometimes wishing is worth it <3 .sc.
November 2010
1 post
I would. ♥
So I haven’t just legitly blogged about my life in awhile I think its time. So yesterday was a horrible day. I got a ticket because Newberry won’t give me a decal yet. I had a bad day in Precalculus. Also to add onto it my phone cracked and people just began to really annoy me. I knew that it wasn’t going to get any better. Well my friends here try to help some by laughing at it...
October 2010
3 posts
Lie to me.
Lie to me and tell me and pretend that you care.
Pretend to love me and you run fingers through my hair.
Lie to me and tell me its all gonna be okay.
When I know that It’s never gonna be that way.
Lie to me tell me that we will make it work.
When all around us failure lurks.
Lie to me and tell me that you’ll never hurt me.
And then go and rip me to pieces for everyone to see.
...
I'm not sure...
Hot salty liquid quickly descending.
And all of my feelings are severely bending.
And I’m not sure how to feel anymore.
My Head is throbbing with the beat of pain.
There’s seems to be nothing left to gain.
And I’m not sure how to breathe anymore.
The tears come faster and my heart grows loud.
My face can be picked easily from the crowd.
And I’m not sure how to speak...
You're no different
You held my hand and showed me love.
And gave me hope from above.
I began to remind why people smile.
And with you life seemed worth while.
I told you everything and trusted you.
I never thought you could hurt me too.
But then it came the dark cloud of reality.
And everyone stuck in the dream of sensuality.
But I can’t stand here and pretend I’m not hurt.
But I’ll stand...
September 2010
2 posts
I don't know
I don’t know what you’ve done to me.
But everything inside me has begun to scream.
I don’t know why I feel this way.
And I can’t find any words to say.
I don’t know how I got here.
But nothing here is very clear.
I don’t know what to do about this.
And everytime I try I seem to miss.
I don’t know how to act around you.
But you seem to know just...
Knock♥
Life keeps knocking, but I don’t go to the door.
I’m still here letting my tears hit the floor.
I’m scared to hear what life has to say.
So I’ll put it off until another day.
I’m not strong enough for more bad news.
Lately all I seem to do is lose.
So maybe if I ignore the knock it will go away.
And maybe then I’ll be able to say that I’m okay.
I’ll just ignore reality and live in my...
August 2010
3 posts
Love Detector.
They say that when you need to find metal you buy a detector. You put on your gear and you get it set up and you go out on your way to find what you’ve lost or to find things you never even knew where there. I recently was thinking about my heartbeat. Its a constant pace but when we push ourselves to new places it gets louder and harder letting you know you’re meeting your goal. Well...
Your Voice♥
Lighting strikes and the thunder shouts.
But when I here your voice it clears all my doubts.
So hold my hand tell me will make it through.
Because I’ll believe it if it comes from you.
I used to be alone in this chaotic mess.
But now that I have you I’ve began to worry less.
You’ve held up my chin and gently kissed my lips.
And kept me safe with your arms around my hips.
...
Me♥
You me call me strange, different, unusual, or anything you want.
But I’m just me there’s no one word to describe it.
So you can look me up and down and make your judgement.
But no one but me truly knows what fits.
I am strange I like to look beyond the horizon.
I do like to make you turn your head in wonder.
If I was normal it just wouldn’t be the same.
I enjoy the...
June 2010
3 posts
Gone.
People tell me that I am Strong.
But they have no idea how much that is wrong.
I am one who cries in the silence of my room.
Wishing that I could just find an end to the doom,
But for now it’s all surrounding me.
Hurt, Pain, Despair all combined in an endless sea.
The pain gets heavier and people think I’m sick,
When really I’m just stuck in life’s nasty trick,
The one, where...
Fallen
(v.1)
Why does it hurt?
Why can’t I breathe?
I’ve been slammed in the dirt.
And I can hardly see.
I feel like crashing down.
Everything is rushing at me.
And I began to drown.
As my life drifts to sea.
(Chrs)
And I can not take it.
The pains to much to bare.
They tell me I can make it.
But do they really care.
They don’t see my open cuts.
My heart is no longer...
Pushing Through The Storm
I thought we’d never end,
I thought you were the one.
Now I’ve lost another friend.
I guess I was wrong.
You have gone on and you won’t look back.
You push forward down the road.
But I’ve been knocked off track.
It ended because you can’t admit you’re wrong.
And now I’m the one crying,
And trying to find a joyful song,
But there’s no hope...
May 2010
2 posts
“Long gone are the days when we believed that boys had cooties. Now we face...”
– Me
Listen
April 2010
1 post
Chesterfield... My home
Chesterfield
To the untrained eye, it remains a small quiet town.
But to those who know it well it’s a home so renowned.
When you look you may not see alot, but I can see its shine.
And even on the boring days, I’m happy to call it mine.
A town that most will blink and miss,
Is the town that I call home, and if its taught me one thing its this.
That it will always be there,...
February 2010
2 posts
Your Music...♥
Is it normal for my heart to feel like this?
And I know that my smile can’t be missed.
My stomach keeps turning round and around.
And I can feel my heart falling to the ground.
I just can’t understand why I’m so drawn to you.
No matter how hard I try there’s nothing i can do.
Your voice, your smile, your music draws me in.
I try to look away, but with you my strength grows...
January 2010
2 posts
Nothing Can Steal
He whispers take my hand, don’t listen to their words.
Just understand that we will make it all work.
If you trust in me I will help you understand.
And hand in hand is how we will stand.
Hold up your head and wipe away your tears.
Lean your head on mine, will make it i swear.
Because finding love like this is very rare.
We cant ignore such an amazing feeling.
As my heart soars up to...
Risks Worth Taking...
My Heart beats faster,
As I read your name on my screen.
You have somehow mastered my heart.
And my soul you have seen.
I can no longer hold back my growing smile
As your words capture of me,
I can only hope this will last a while.
For it is with you, that I want to be.
People may say that I’m crazy
And they may not all agree.
And maybe I am just dreaming on daisies.
But lately you’re all that I...
November 2009
5 posts
“Forget the risk. Take the fall. If it’s what you want. It’s worth it...”
Nothing ♥
Spinning, I think I am going to fall soon.
Everything seems so full of gloom.
Lately, It’s all way to fast.
And I’m not sure how long I’ll last.
It’s hurting me so badly now.
Maybe its my turn for a bow.
Because my time is over.
Chorus:
I can’t breathe.
And lately I can’t seem to see
Straightly, through all the pain
And there’s nothing left to...
“I always like to look on the optimistic side of life, but I am realistic enough...”
– Walt Disney
Give me your hand
Hold out your hand and place it in mine.
And look into my eyes let’s lose track of time.
For when we are together, No one else can hear.
The words we share in silent not heard by ears.
Together with our love we could conquer the world.
And let those around us minds twirl.
Because with your hands in mine, nothing else matters.
And all the stress and pain in my life seems to shatter.
To...
October 2009
1 post
Knock Knock
Kailyn: Knock Knock !!!
Hunter: Who's There?
Monica: EYY Its Harry Potter!
((Pit + English Accents = LAUGHTER XD))
September 2009
1 post
I hate
♥The way you made me fall, and left as I fell.
♥The way you smile at me
♥The way you joke with me
♥The Way you made me feel
♥The way you said you cared
♥The way you lie to girls
♥How you flirt with everyone
♥How you’re selfish
♥The way you ignore me
♥The way you try to make me jealous
♥How you think nothings ever your fault
♥How you think you can control everyone
♥How you think...
August 2009
14 posts
“All men dream but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of...”
– T.E. Lawrence
At A Distance
I have to remember to breathe lately.
You have taken over my mind.
I can’t even think straightly.
You have put me in a bind.
You have made me smile, without a single word.
And no one’s done that before.
You have a voice, like one I’ve never heard.
You taken my life and opened a new door,
To a place I’ve never even dreamed of.
Where you are the only one I see.
You made my heart...